The Yoga of Patience: A Steady Unfolding

Every year since 2014, I’ve had the good fortune to spend 18 days at Spirit Rock Meditation Center. My partner and I attend two back-to-back nine-day retreats each year in July. The first nine days focus on the cultivation of kindness and compassion, and the second nine days focus on mindfulness practice. I feel immense gratitude for the teachings, the practice, and the wisdom of the teachers.
 
When I tell people who haven’t engaged in this type of practice that I’m off to attend a silent meditation retreat, most reactions fall into two categories: “I couldn’t be quiet for that long” or “That sounds really relaxing.” My responses: The silence is actually the easy part, and you appreciate it more as the days go by. Relaxing? Well … ultimately, it can be. But not in your day-at-the-beach sense.

It’s actually very hard work, and it’s very humbling. Unless you’ve tried it, it’s hard to fathom the challenges of being with your own wandering mind all your waking hours with no diversions. You see and become intimate with everything you’ve clung to in your life: your addictions, neuroses, habitual thought and belief patterns.

And then there are the endless earworms, more often than not annoying songs—“Chicken Fat,” anyone?—and commercial jingles. As one of the teachers, Joseph Goldstein, says, “The mind has no pride.”You’re way ahead of the game if you can take the onslaught with a dose of humor at least some of the time.

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The only diversions are your own memories, reveries, and fantasies, most of which tend to fuel the fire rather than subdue it. Deliverance comes in the form of kind acceptance and the gradually unfolding, and often fleeting, the recognition that none of it—none of it—is permanent or personal.

Like most things of value, this does not happen instantly. It unfolds over years, with strong intention and dedicated practice. After 32 years of practice and many retreats, four of which lasted 30 days, I can say that the change in my way of being—my ability to accept things as they are and act from a place of clarity and kindness—has changed markedly. It’s certainly not “perfect,” whatever that is. There is still plenty to work on, but I like to think I’m less inclined to spend my energies creating new unhealthy mental habits than I did in the past. And discovering existing unhealthy mental habits certainly doesn’t upset me or cause the crippling self-judgment it used to.

Yogic Speech: Developing New Habits

One example: One of my family’s favorite communication styles was snarky speech. On some days, and with certain people, I’m very skilled at formulating instantaneous smart-ass responses. Despite the fact that snark comes easily to me, since the advent of blogs and social media, I rein it in when I’m engaging in controversial discussions. Snark seems only to provoke more ugliness. I never comment anonymously. I feel it’s important only to write in ways I feel comfortable claiming.

I’ve been consciously practicing this form of skillful speech for many years now—albeit not always successfully. Yet I was surprised and amused to discover that whenever my mind felt a need to comment on my meditation practice while I was on retreat, it came in the form of a silent, snarky comment. That habit is just really in there. 

The stuff we’ve practiced for decades has deep roots and lots of momentum. It takes a long time and a lot of vigilance to change the habits we’ve cultivated. This particular conditioning, one of many I’ve discovered over years of practice, was mostly entertaining to watch. Other habits of mind have not been so easy to accept.

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Patience Benefits Yoga Practice

Patience can help us deepen our yoga asana practice. All too often, we prioritize fancy, so-called “advanced” yoga postures over practicing with presence. This causes us to feel as if our yoga practice is somehow never good enough. Sutra 2.47 in Patanjali’s yoga sutras states that asana “is mastered when all effort is relaxed and the mind is absorbed in the Infinite.” 

This means that mastery has nothing to do with practicing crazy poses or pushing to our limits. Impatience, wanting our practice to be something other than what it is, and applying forceful effort in order to achieve this, is a hindrance to mastery. It is, in fact, in relaxing our effort, practicing patience, that we can experience mastery. 

Patience Leads to Yogic Equanimity

One of the retreat teachers, Kamala Masters, gave a beautiful talk one evening on patience. The Buddha said, “Patience is the highest virtue.” At a moment in my practice when impatience and expectation had been obscuring my ability to be present, her words had profound resonance. Her talk caused me to reflect on the gradual unfolding of my practice over the years, and the fact that equanimity lives much closer to the surface of my being than it has in the past. It used to be a major event to experience equanimity. Now it is accessible much of the time.
 
As I sat on retreat wishing for whiz-bang insights and the infinite spaciousness I’ve experienced in the past, the quiet, spacious calm of equanimity was right there, available in that moment. The only thing keeping me from seeing it was my desire for something else I thought would be more exciting. It is patience, the ability to be with what is—even if what is present is impatience—that allows me to appreciate today’s practice and to open to equanimity.
 
Kamala said, “When the fruit is ripe, it will fall from the tree.” We can’t force our awakening, any more than we can force our bodies to practice fancy yoga poses or force other people to be anything other than who they are. But we can find satisfaction in patience, in being present for the gifts that are available to us now, whether they are pleasant or unpleasant. Slowly but surely, with intention, practice, patience, acceptance, and a healthy dose of humor, we can cultivate the habit of happiness.

Stu Girling, Yoga teacher, Anatomy teacher, writer, YogaUOnline presenter compression vs. muscular tightness

Reprinted with permission from Hugger Mugger Yoga Products.
 

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Charlotte Bell began practicing yoga in 1982 and began teaching in 1986. She was certified by B.K.S. Iyengar in 1989 following a trip to Pune. In 1986, she began practicing Insight Meditation with her mentors Pujari and Abhilasha Keays. Her asana classes blend mindfulness with physical movement. Charlotte writes a column for Catalyst Magazine and serves as editor for Yoga U Online. She is the author of two books: Mindful Yoga, Mindful Life, and Yoga for Meditators, both published by Rodmell Press. She also edits Hugger Mugger Yoga Products¹ blog and is a founding board member for GreenTREE Yoga, a non-profit that brings yoga to underserved populations. A lifelong musician, she plays oboe and English horn in the Salt Lake Symphony and the folk sextet Red Rock Rondo whose 2010 PBS music special won two Emmys.

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